Trusting God Through Uncertainty — Faith Reflection for Women

I am going to be completely transparent with you today.

I am in a season of uncertainty right now. Real, uncomfortable, keeping-me-up-at-night uncertainty. I have done what I could do. I have prayed, I have planned, I have taken the steps I knew to take. And now I am in the hardest place of all... the waiting. The trusting. The letting go of the outcome and believing that God has it even when I cannot see how.

And if I am being fully honest? It is causing me distress.

I am not writing this from the other side of the breakthrough. I am writing this from the middle of it. Because I think sometimes we need to hear from someone who is still in it not just someone who has already come through.

The Recovering Control Freak

Here is something you should know about me I am a recovering control freak.

I am the type of person who needs to know when things are going to happen and how they are going to happen. I like plans. I like timelines. I like knowing what is coming so I can prepare for it mentally and emotionally. That part of me has not completely died yet and in seasons like this one, it shows up loud.

When uncertainty hits I do not go quietly. My mind starts racing. I start trying to figure things out. I start running scenarios, mapping outcomes, calculating possibilities. All in an attempt to feel some sense of control over something that was never really in my hands to begin with.

Can anybody relate? 🤍

Because here is what I have learned about control it is really just fear wearing a business suit. It looks productive. It feels responsible. But underneath it all it is just anxiety trying to manage what only God can handle.

Silencing the Noise

In the middle of everything I am facing right now I am trying and I genuinely mean trying to silence the constant noise in my head and fix my gaze on Jesus.

That is easier said than done. Honestly.

I understand how magnifying uncertainty can cause me to spiral. One anxious thought leads to another and before I know it I have convinced myself of ten different worst case scenarios that haven't even happened yet. It is in moments like these where standing on the promises of God is not just a nice idea it is a survival strategy. Faith is not a feeling right now. It is a choice I am making every single morning when I wake up.

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future."
— Jeremiah 29:11

I repeat this verse every time doubt and fear try to creep in. Not because it immediately makes everything feel better. But because it reminds me that God has already seen the outcome I am anxious about and He called it good.

Reading It Is Not Enough

It is also in these moments — the hard ones, the uncertain ones — that you realize reading God's Word is not enough.

You have to live it.

You have to allow it to carry you through life's toughest seasons. The scripture that sat beautifully on your morning devotional page has to become the thing you whisper to yourself in the parking lot. The thing you repeat when your thoughts start spiraling at 2am. The thing you stand on when everything around you is shaking.

Faith has to be walked out. Not just read about. Not just posted on Instagram. Actually walked out in the middle of the uncertainty, in the middle of the fear, in the middle of the days when you feel like a complete basket case.

And sis? Those days are allowed.

Being Honest With God

One of the most important things I have learned in this season is this... it does me no good to pretend with God.

I am not going to walk around acting like I am great and just basking in the love of the Lord when in all actuality I am struggling. God already knows. He sees every anxious thought. He hears every prayer I pray and every one I am too overwhelmed to form into words. He knows the real me not the Sunday morning version, not the Instagram version, not the version that has it all together.

So I have decided to be honest with Him about my feelings.

Lord I am scared. Lord I do not understand what You are doing. Lord the uncertainty is heavy and I do not know how this is going to work out. Lord I am trying to trust You but some days it is really hard.

And you know what? He meets me right there. Every single time.

Not with judgment. Not with disappointment. With the same grace and the same presence and the same gentle reminder that He has never once failed me and He is not starting now.

"Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."
— 1 Peter 5:7

He cares for you. Not just your situation. Not just the outcome. You. The anxious, uncertain, trying-to-trust version of you that shows up on the hard days. That is the version He loves and meets without hesitation.

What I Am Choosing Today

I do not have a tidy ending for this post. The uncertainty is still there. The outcome is still unknown. I still do not have all the answers I am waiting for.

But here is what I am choosing today:

I am choosing to trust a God who has proven Himself faithful in every single season of my life even when I could not see what He was doing. I am choosing to stand on His promises even when my feelings are loudly arguing with them. I am choosing to be honest with Him about my struggle while simultaneously refusing to let fear have the final word.

I am choosing to believe that what He has for me is still coming. That the uncertainty is not the enemy it is actually the training ground where my faith gets deeper and my trust gets stronger.

And if you are in a season of uncertainty today I want you to choose that too.

Not because it is easy. Because He is faithful. And faithful is enough. 🤍

Tadaryl Hills

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